DISCLAIMER: My mind's on a high right now, and I really need a release. So forgive me, for this very random and unorganized blog post. As a proof, I'll be writing in bullets (again! haha!)
* Children's pilgirmage is in a few hours from now. Well, technically, it's still a day, but the countdown is killing me. haha. Seriously. This is a major activity, and it's as if the whole activity is dependent on us. But I know He never fails. I just need to calm myself and get myself together. haha!
* Work's been stressing me out lately. How can people be so insensitive? I am a very patient person, but I also have my limits. That's just the last thread of all this stuff. I am so making my move towards a career, and not only a "job". Just a few more months before I finish Don Bosco! Konting, KONTING TIIS nalang Nich! :)
* Been missing Vic so much. I feel like crying at random times. But I know that once I do, he'll feel it. Seriously creepy. Everytime I feel down, he suddenly appears out of the blue. It's as if the whole universe is conspiring to reassure me. (That, or he really loves me. haha. chesseballs! sorry.) It's been 35 days today since we last saw each other. But then, the communication is consistent and constant, so I am not really that bothered. I mean, I do miss the physical prescence of him. But I feel his love each and everyday. So I choose to be strong, for him, and most especially for us. He is that person who can make me vulnerably-strong anyway.
So pretty much, that's it.
I'm stressing about the pilgrimage right now, pissed off at work, missing Vic, but yes, I am happy. :)
Just my random piece this 3 in the morning. ;)
October 23, 2015
October 15, 2015
January 2014 'til October 2015
Funny thing, 2015's about to end and here I am writing about 2014. I really should keep up more with blogging. HAHA
Anyway, here was my 2014 in a bullets:
* I got my heartbroken. My then-boyfriend broke up with me a few days before my birthday. Great way to start my 23rd year, eh? Looking back now, I spent a lot of my 2014 being heartbroken. Why did I even let my 23rd year go to waste? HAHA
* I started studying again! I enrolled at Don Bosco to take up Basic Course in Catechetics. Honestly? I just wanted a distraction. I was reluctant and my heart wasn't really into it. But who knows there was so much more in store for me? Not only did I find myself again, but I got my heart's pieces back together. (More on that later.haha!)
Over-all, 2014 was a hell lot of rollercoaster ride for me. I wouldn't say it was a good year, mainly because of the heartbreak that I let myself be taken over with, but it wasn't that bad either. I found out who my real friends were, those who never left and listened despite all my recurring stories. And yes, I guess, I pretty much found myself again last year. I kept on chasing the wrong things in life, not realizing I have been blessed in other ways that I didn't notice. 2014 was a year of chasing the wrong things and channelling my energy on less important things.
And here is my 2015 in bullets:
* I broke someone's heart. I know what you might be thinking, I tried to get revenge. No, I didn't. It's just that I tried. As I've said, there was "something" but I really felt that that "something" wasn't enough. So I broke a heart. I felt bad about it but I had to do it anyway. I mean, I wouldn't really want to date a guy "just because".
* I found out what I really wanted to do with my life. Thank you to DBCS, I realized that I really wanted to teach. Few more months and I am a step closer to my dream. I have completely embraced my vocation as a catechist.
* I got my heart back together. Just when I thought I was doing fine with having just my friends and family, someone decides to come along. As I've always told him, he just put the "-ier" to happy. I met him in Don Bosco. Honestly? I just found him cute. A happy crush that is. Little did I know that it would develop into something more. Little did I know that even after Don Bosco, we would still have something to share. He's already met mama and papa. But right now, we have a lot more things to work out on.
Right now, he's making me so much happier, so much inspired and so much more focused on Him. He's so much more than I asked for. He's the kind of guy who won't make me his world, but rather find and build a world that is ours to share. He knows just the right things to say, when to say sorry and when to argue with me. He 's just complementary and so much more.
As I've always said in my prayers, I really don't know where this love would be going but wherever it will be taking me, I would be forever grateful. And right now, he's just the guy that I've been praying for. Yes, we have a lot, lot more to work out, but I have never been a quitter and have no plans of giving up until I've given my all.
So 2015, you ask? I am happy. On the other aspects (specifically career), I have a lot more to work out on. What's the use of dreams and goals if you won't work for it, right? I know He provides in His perfect timing and plan. This 2015 has taught me to completely surrender and let Go(d).
A couple more months before 2015 ends, let's see what else is in store for me. :)
Anyway, here was my 2014 in a bullets:
* I got my heartbroken. My then-boyfriend broke up with me a few days before my birthday. Great way to start my 23rd year, eh? Looking back now, I spent a lot of my 2014 being heartbroken. Why did I even let my 23rd year go to waste? HAHA
* I started studying again! I enrolled at Don Bosco to take up Basic Course in Catechetics. Honestly? I just wanted a distraction. I was reluctant and my heart wasn't really into it. But who knows there was so much more in store for me? Not only did I find myself again, but I got my heart's pieces back together. (More on that later.haha!)
Over-all, 2014 was a hell lot of rollercoaster ride for me. I wouldn't say it was a good year, mainly because of the heartbreak that I let myself be taken over with, but it wasn't that bad either. I found out who my real friends were, those who never left and listened despite all my recurring stories. And yes, I guess, I pretty much found myself again last year. I kept on chasing the wrong things in life, not realizing I have been blessed in other ways that I didn't notice. 2014 was a year of chasing the wrong things and channelling my energy on less important things.
And here is my 2015 in bullets:
* I broke someone's heart. I know what you might be thinking, I tried to get revenge. No, I didn't. It's just that I tried. As I've said, there was "something" but I really felt that that "something" wasn't enough. So I broke a heart. I felt bad about it but I had to do it anyway. I mean, I wouldn't really want to date a guy "just because".
* I found out what I really wanted to do with my life. Thank you to DBCS, I realized that I really wanted to teach. Few more months and I am a step closer to my dream. I have completely embraced my vocation as a catechist.
* I got my heart back together. Just when I thought I was doing fine with having just my friends and family, someone decides to come along. As I've always told him, he just put the "-ier" to happy. I met him in Don Bosco. Honestly? I just found him cute. A happy crush that is. Little did I know that it would develop into something more. Little did I know that even after Don Bosco, we would still have something to share. He's already met mama and papa. But right now, we have a lot more things to work out on.
Right now, he's making me so much happier, so much inspired and so much more focused on Him. He's so much more than I asked for. He's the kind of guy who won't make me his world, but rather find and build a world that is ours to share. He knows just the right things to say, when to say sorry and when to argue with me. He 's just complementary and so much more.
As I've always said in my prayers, I really don't know where this love would be going but wherever it will be taking me, I would be forever grateful. And right now, he's just the guy that I've been praying for. Yes, we have a lot, lot more to work out, but I have never been a quitter and have no plans of giving up until I've given my all.
So 2015, you ask? I am happy. On the other aspects (specifically career), I have a lot more to work out on. What's the use of dreams and goals if you won't work for it, right? I know He provides in His perfect timing and plan. This 2015 has taught me to completely surrender and let Go(d).
A couple more months before 2015 ends, let's see what else is in store for me. :)
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