December 30, 2017

2017, Thank You

2017 has been but eventful. As this year closes, let me take this time to wite down the things that I will be taking away with me this 2017. 

And yes, I am writing this in bullets again. 

  • (Again) It's never too late to try again, or to dream another dream. 
  • It's perfectly fine to say 'no'.
  • If you risk, there's always going to be consequences, and at the same time, rewards.
  • Life should not be taken in haste, rather one day at a time. 
  • Love. 

Thank you so much,2017. Definitely, a braver, bolder, and better me.  

September 12, 2017

2017 Updates


Noticed that my blog has been in hiatus for the past few months, so I better do some updating. Will be doing this in bullets since I am a bit lazy. HAHA!

  • Resigned from my BPO job last June. THE SWEETEST FREEDOM I HAVE EVER HAD!!!! Which reminds me, I still have to claim my final pay. HAHA! 
  • Grad schools's been nice to me naman. I know I can do better so I'll just make bawi this coming term (THAT SOUNDS SO CONYO! HAHAHA!). Term's starting this week. Sobrang bilis, but I honestly can't wait to go back to the univ. 
  • 9-0-0 + days with the Vic! Been through some rough disagreements, but then, that's the thrill, right? But seriously, grateful for this guy pushing me out of my introvert shell. It could get a little bit uncomfortable at times, but yeah, what are relationships for, db? 
  • Having so much fun at work! Yes, I have to be honest that I've risked so much, especially financially, but I know God provides. After all, this is what I asked for di ba? To just be happy. And MIHCA just makes me feel so happy, so worthy, so loved... EXACTLY WHERE I WISH TO BE RIGHT NOW. 
  • Emotions been on a rollercoaster. Too much with the standards of the world. Too much disappointment. Too much learning experiences. Well. Life... and choices. 

The year's almost about to end, and here I am honestly still so excited for the remaining days of 2017. 

For everything, thank You so much, Papa God!

May 4, 2017

One Day

One day, you'll wake up exhausted and deafened by the noises and voices of the world.
One day, you'll go on doubting yourself and questioning your gut feel.
One day, you'll stop being boxed by the world's expectations of you.
One day, you'll know who you're waking up for.
One day, you'll listen to your heartbeat.

One day, you'll wake up with regrets, could've-beens, should've-beens, and what ifs.
One day, you'll go on questioning all your decisions and choices.
One day, you'll stop asking about your purpose and worth.
One day, you'll know this is where you should be.
One day, you'll listen to your heartbeat.

One day, you'll wake up to your dreams telling you to chase after them.
One day, you'll go on finding ways to make the dreams into reality.
One day, you'll stop making and finding excuses not to go on.
One day, you'll know this is what you want.
One day, you'll listen to your heartbeat.

One day, you'll wake up widely smiling knowing that you have one worth waking up to everyday.
One day, you'll go on laughing about tears you cried during what seemed to be endless nights.
One day, you'll stop asking God for Mr. or Ms. perfectly right.
One day, you'll know why you had to wait.
One day, you'll listen to you're heartbeat
...beside someone you love and loves you in return.

One day, you'll wake up finally telling yourself, "Everything finally makes sense to me".
One day, you'll go loving unconditionally, dreaming relentlessly, and chasing bravely.
One day, you'll stop asking what the world can do for you.
One day, you'll know this is what you were born for.
One day, you'll listen to your heartbeat.

And who knows, maybe that one day is today.

April 25, 2017

Is It Too Much Too Ask For?

ORAS. 

     Ever since, this was all I needed. I never asked for expensive gifts, although every now and then I did wish you gave me flowers or even the cheapest chocolates. But all I ask for is time. 

      Been literally crying myself to sleep for the past two days. It's a different kind of missing. This one's a different tampo this time. 

      Good thing there's MIHCA, somehow  I get distracted. Somehow I'm able to put it off my mind for a while. But on my way home, I instantly remember how much I'm hurting. Here I go again with the "parang hindi ako girlfriend feeling". 

        Maybe it's the thought of you going to Bora that I won't be able to see you before you leave. Maybe it's me wanting to hear you say it's going to be okay when I file my resignation letter. Maybe it's me just wanting to hold your hand and hug you tight. Maybe it's me wanting to hear mass with you before you go.  Here I go again with the tears. 

        And the worst is that, you don't seem to care. That maybe, just maybe I'm the one who wants this more. 

         Nakakapagod din. Nakakapagod ding magpasuyo. Nakakapagod din maglambing. At bukod sa lahat, nakakapagod na ding umiyak. Pero tila hindi nauubos ang luha. 


         Awat na please, tearducts. Ilang araw ng namamaga ang mata ko. 

March 29, 2017

Because Sometimes Letting Go is What is Needed

I'll be writing this post in bullets, since I'm having a very bad day but I really need to let things out already.


  • Finally got my letter of admission to DLSU's grad school. Confirmation is this Saturday. Thrilled about going back to school, definitely. 
  • (Almost) Came clean to my parents regarding me and Vic. But yes, they're still not THAT happy with it. But yes, we have no plans of giving up. One day at a time. One step at a time. 
  • Told my parents I wanted to resign already in my BPO job. Told them I am unhappy already and my body's giving up as well. But yes, they're not so thrilled with it either. 
I'm hurting so much right now. Why can't just seem to support me with my life choices after all? I just need a reassurance that everything's going to work out. But I can't seem to find that. As I've said, home doesn't seem like home anymore. Can't they just let me let go and let God? 

I just need a tight hug, or a good cry, or even just to get away for a while.

Deactivated Facebook for a while.  Let's see who notices. And let me get back to my reading since I've book therapy myself with 5 new books. 

I just need to let go of all these tears and hurt already.  

 

March 9, 2017

Life-changing 2017

SWEET FREEDOM
SWEET SURRENDER
BREATH OF RELIEF

February 28, 2017

2016 in a Nutshell and a Glimpse of 2017

Just checked out my blog today and I realized I've got a whole lot of updating to do... 

So let me post this as 2016 in a nutshell:



Travelling. Achievement. Passion. New-found family. Kids. Love. Vic. 

Need I say more? ;) 

2017 has been more of this: 

26th year. Second year with this awesome guy. BPO work's been stressing me out. MIHCA has been giving so much happiness. More family time. More enthusiasm in the ministry. Ready to finally take risks. 

2017,I may not exactly know what you have in store for me, but yes, let me be up to it. 

Lezzdothiiis. :)